What follows is a compilation of various relevant ‘bits & pieces’ produced in the early days of discovery on the path.
Please, note: in some of the texts, Moriya = Yudit CS, my mentor of 10 years 🙂
Here’s the amazing thing about Worrying. It wrecks more lives than a gambling addiction. It’s a greater killer than cancer, we all know that. We also know that it’s as useless as holding one’s breath to prevent a storm and yet, we are not quite willing to stop indulging our addiction to Worrying– C.C. Saint-Clair
It is said that soon after his enlightenment, Prince Siddartha a.k.a Buddha explained his new-found understanding, “which became the four noble truths:
- that unhappiness exists.
- that there is cause for that unhappiness
- that unhappiness can cease
- that there is a way that can lead to the cessation of unhappiness” 
Since each subsequent file relies on matters discussed in the preceding ones, we urge you to read each in the order in which they are listed.
When the belief in destiny is allowed to paralyse all energy and overwhelm all courage, it should be re-examined. When the belief in free will is allowed to lead people into egoistic arrogance and materialistic ignorance, it should be re-examined – Paul Brunton
1. In Search of the Present 101 – revised 17.1.08
From ‘A Search in Secret India’ (1934), the Maharishee talks to Paul Brunton: “Why would you trouble yourself about the future?” demanded the sage. “You do not even properly know about the present! Take care of the present; the future will then take care of itself.”
Yes, I am on a quest of sorts – I am searching for a connection to my soul, right here, right now. Admittedly, I have an ulterior motive – quite a strong one at that: I am trying to edit some karma out of my energy field by altering its properties. This, from me, who a year ago thought about my soul as often as about the molecular composition of my body, which was never.
We are living in a culture entirely hypnotized by the illusion of time in which the so-called present moment is felt as nothing but an infinitesimal causative past and an absorbingly important future. We have no present. Our consciousness is almost completely preoccupied with memory and expectation. We do notrealize that there never was, is, or will be any other experience than present experience. We are therefore out of touch with reality. We confuse the world as talked about, described, and measured with the world which actually is- Alan Watts in The Way of Liberation
2. Would The Real Soul, Please, Stand! revised 23.1.08
Karma is our personal, accumulated, fateful load – our score sheet as inherited from our soul’s previous incarnations, compounded by the karmic balance of what we have managed for ourselves in THIS incarnation, this lifetime.
Put simply, since I am past middle age, and since I show no signs of turning into a clone of mother Teresa or of passing as a credible entrant in a Gandhi think-alike contest, it is safe to assume that my soul has already been screwed out of any early plans of Nirvanic retirement.
Look, C.C., what I know is that the same old souls go and return from time immemorial and, the more they suffer, the worse the world becomes because their sorrow affects other souls and no one can help because, as personas, we have all forgotten how to use our wings, the wings of our soul. That is because we have forgotten how to speak in the original tongue of Souls which is the language of unconditional love and not other – Moriya
3. Destination: here – now!
“When a person is in a state of happiness, the left prefrontal cortex is particularly active. The ventral striatum lights up when we experience intense physical pleasure. And when a person is generating compassion, another part of the brain is active, known as the insular.”
Narrator – Catalyst 
Being a good person, by anyone’s yardstick, is one thing but, though it is essential, it is not what THIS process of karmic amendment is about.
Western philosophy and science trap the universe in the network of words, thoughts, equations and substitutes as well as an ongoing confusion of rules, laws, grammar and mathematics called ‘reasoning’. Sadly, we take in this network and make it rigid. We then use it as so many weapons against the ordered and logical spontaneity of nature.
As a rule of thumb, I will say that even as we consider ourselves thoughtful and caring, we are, to greater or lesser degrees, a part of our culture’s worship of personal power and profit and therefore equally to greater or lesser degrees removed from our spirit’s energy, from our energy field and the karma that is currently ours to edit.
The present moves like a brook, a stream or the sea. We cannot hold on to any part of it, not for more than a few seconds. But, then again, the present is also eternal because it is ALWAYS there– C.C. Saint-Clair
4. Karma Is! revised 14.1.08
The present moves like a brook, a stream or the sea. We cannot hold on to any part of it, not for more than a few seconds. But, then again, the present is also eternal because it is ALWAYS there.
If we could dredge deep down into the ego, we would bring out all the forgotten clutter from time immemorial. Everything past still exists there. Everything past creates and recreates ceaselessly our response to each present moment, which is the root of our struggle.
Again and again, just as waves form and break, again and again, our reactions to situations, our actions to reactions remain unchanged and so does the magnetic duality of all we do.
Karma does not mean cause and effect. It simply means doing. In other words, you are doing what is happening to you. And that, of course, depends how you define the word ‘you’. [ … ] Consider breathing: am i doing it or is it happening to me? I am growing my hair: am I doing it or is it happening to me? You can look at it either way. I am sick. Or am I destroyed in an accident – if I define myself as the whole field of events, the organism-environment field which is the real me, then all the things that happen to me may be called my doing. And that is the real sense of karma – Alan Watts
5. A Drop is an Ocean [the concept of Non-Separation] revised 6.1.08
Dr Richard Davidson: Unfortunately, a lot of the things that many of us are motivated to acquire may produce a temporary boost in happiness, but they don’t produce a sustained elevation. 
Separation occurs every time we think Me first or Mine first. Simple as that.
Separation occurs every time we think that we are cuter, sexier, smarter, richer, gentler, more understanding more … more … more than the person in the queue in front of us.
Separation occurs whenever we think we are more deserving than someone else.
Separation occurs when we think that as long as we act for the benefit of our children, our family, our friends, we can push someone, anyone, out of the way to obtain whatever it is we are after.
At its ugliest, it is often made most graphic on the big screen:
separation brings us images of looters in the aftermath of a disaster.
Separation is images of otherwise *nice* people pushing and shoving each other out of the way, trampling each other to get, to horde what they think they need to survive – they want it for themselves and for their family – they want it at the expense of someone else’s family.
Separation is favouring one child over another, in the home as in the classroom.
Separation is taking one look at someone and, on face value, deciding we can’t possibly “connect”, so we actively, if unwittingly, pursue the separation.
6. Spirituality In Real Time revised 23.9. 08
When we are blind to the world of messages around us, we talk about coincidences, good luck or bad luck, good days and bad days and we scratch our head wondering why and how we have ended up in any one particular situation. Maybe we cry, maybe we shrug, maybe laugh but, as sure as the moon never sets, we eventually move on and further into something akin to tunnel vision or selective blindness.
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If the choice is between getting some sort of understanding as to why things *happen* to us as they do – even in the absence of total proof – or relying on holy water, crystals and tumble stones, Feng Shui water fountains, reciting of mantras while driving to work or having faith in our favorite talisman, pet rock, neighbourhood healer, hermit or quack – I have made my choice.
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Messages – in the form of signs and symbols, names and thousands of words and images – swirl around each and every one of us, all of the time, in our wakeful moments and in our sleep.
Because these signs are not dramatic signs such as apparitions or strange manifestations; because we, as a civilization, have lost the ability to recognize them, they remain unnoticed.
Our brain recognizes spectacular, hi-glam, hi-visibility meaningful moments, but our brain simply does not interpret the mundane and the minute signs embedded in the continuous string of moments that make up our days and our nights – year after year after year – from birth to death.
Yet, like raindrops hanging precariously off our clothesline side by side, they are connected to each other; they are tangible and they carry meaning. Beyond guiding us towards our potential, symbolic signs and occurrences are sent to us to remind us, to encourage us, to confirm that, spiritually, we are on the right track. They are also sent to us to warn us when we are on the wrong track.
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Before we begin looking specifically at dream deconstruction [intentionally set up as an appendix to this file and titled How We Need To See], it is important to get a general understanding of the symbols that appear in our mindful, wakeful moments. Until we do, we are no more evolved than the toddler roaming from room to room who only becomes aware of the dangers and traps, represented by the myriad of objects around her, once they have caused her pain.
The sooner she learns that the wiggling of her mother’s index finger means, “No”; that the corners of the coffee table symbolize pain, along with buttons popped in her mouth; reaching for the iron cord, and exploring the content of the cabinet under the sink, the sooner she will experience less avoidable pain and more spontaneous rewards.
Everything that we notice is meant for us. It is like someone sending us a note that we are intended to open and read. If we miss out on the message or misunderstand it, we might not get another opportunity in this lifetime – Moriya
7. Making Meaning – Glossary [large file – be in the moment] 23.9.2008
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It is quite strange for lack of a better word to accept that human *bodies*, bags of skin and bones and water have – once in full
We all strive for I would say genuine happiness in the sense of flourishing, fulfilment when you’re low, the quality of every moment of your life makes you think it’s worth to be alive. 
mechanical mode – at a time B.C, forgotten their place and their sole function which was to serve the soul. Too clever for their own good, they have turned tables to assume top-dog status.
In doing so, they enslaved our soul by trapping her in such a way that she can neither save herself nor the body that traps her. It is because of this turn around that Karma was born. And most of us – incarnated since – have never looked back.
8. Color Me Pink – 8.11.2008
The fact is that we are already reacting all the time to symbols, but we only interpret them from our persona’s eyes, and our eyes are connected to a brain that has long ago forgotten how to interpret life beyond its linear way of thinking.
The ability to interpret symbols correctly is one of the signs of spiritual evolution, as it affords us an overview understanding of the greater scheme of things.
One can go around and around in the same circle of woes – not seeing it as an inner state but as an outer situation – as other people’s thoughts. Yet seen from the strength of new consciousness, we perceive that it all comes from [our] self – Dr Maurice Nicoll
9. Moriya Explains 7. 02.2009
“Do you remember, C.C.,” Moriya asked, “how many times I have told you that as our true self, as Soul, we already *know* everything we need to know in order to be realized? I have already told you that we don’t need to learn anything more besides opening our heart to let our heart-chakra energy flow, one interaction at a time. Pashoot meod.”
It seems that what we define as learning is simply finding ways to remember from the ancient wisdom that, along with our karma, has been passed on to us through our *recycled* soul – bless her 🙂
Beyond physical equality, anyone who is asserting that they are on the spiritual Path has to accept that beyond the physical boundaries of our bodies – the same gross matter for one and all – we are also all equal energetic bodies – the same energetic matter for one and all. And it is because of this energetic sameness that we need to grow beyond the illusion that we are quantitatively/qualitatively different, deserving, worthy and separable from one and all – C.C. Saint-Clair
10. Armed – Not Alarmed
” I find it amazing that humans have forgotten altogether that they live in a symbolic world of pictures and symbols. Instead, they choose to experience a substitute — interpretations as digested by their leaders, be they political leaders, media spinners, social group leaders or the people they herd with, and even TV sitcoms. No wonder the world is so full of blind people who sleepwalk through their days.
Look at the state of the Western world: millions and millions of people are addicted to medications, drugs by any other name. All these prescribed drugs have side effects that, at the very least, pollute their brains and make them walking zombies.
And then they watch TV on a screen that keeps getting bigger and bigger as their ability to think for themselves shrinks more and more.
They act as if they believe actors in sitcoms are real, that their lives are real; and they discuss what is happening in these characters’ lives as if they were their best friends distraught, in love, cheated, sick and dying, for real.
They are brainwashed by all kinds of kish-kushim that only makes them more ignorant and slaves to their greed, fears and desires.
No matter how much noise they make in the process, most people are so brainwashed that they choose to vote for that boyish grin or the winning smile or the clothes elegance, and for the one who they think is most like them because of something in that person’s life that the media have hyped up.
They will also choose as leader the one they think will deliver extra money to their pocket or give them that right they want most of all, believing any of this will change their lives.
It is unbelievable to see how the ego-persona – whose function it is to serve the soul – turns the table around to become, through the human body, a ruler strong enough to enslave the soul by trapping her in such a way that she cannot protect the human body from itself.
In this lies the irony of the human condition: our soul – infinite and of the finest refined energy imaginable – while ‘incarcerated’ in her incarnation is unable to ‘shine through’ as long as we, ego-personas, are all clogged up by our needs and emotions.
To use a modern-day analogy, it is no different than trying to install the latest software in a computer that has become superseded.
This is why Karma was born “– dixit Moriya
Here’s the amazing thing about Worrying. It wrecks more lives than a gambling addiction. It’s a greater killer than cancer, we all know that. We also know that it’s as useless as holding one’s breath to prevent a storm and yet, we are not quite willing to stop indulging our addiction to Worrying –
11. A Short Lesson In Understanding by Moriya
“Once upon a time there was a king who enjoyed the company of his trusted friend, a Sufi.
One day the king said: “Look, I love and trust you as much as I love and trust my soul. Please,” he said, looking into the man’s eyes,
“I would like to give you a present, so ask whatever you wish, even to the half of my kingdom.”
The Sufi replied, “My king, I do not wish for anything.”
“Please, ask whatever you want and it’ll be granted.”
The Sufi said softly, “I thank you, but I honestly do not wish for more than I already have.”
Both men stood their ground until finally the wise man turned and said: “There is a question I would like to ask?”
“But of course,” replied the king.
“Imagine that you have become separated from your men and that you are lost in the desert. There is not one living soul around. High in the sky, the sun is hot on your head. There are no bushes under which to find shelter.
Your tongue feels as dry and dusty as the hair on your camel’s tail. Then, an apparition appears in front of you and proffers a tumbler of cool water towards you. You reach for it but before releasing the tumbler, the apparition proposes a deal.
A tumbler of cool water for half of your kingdom. My King, would you agree to the deal?”
“Of course, I would!” exclaimed the King.
“So,” continued the wise man, “why would I need something that is valued as much as a tumbler of water?””
12. What Do We see? by Moriya
When we look around, we are able to identify people, objects, familiar surroundings and so on, because these items exist within our memory bank that contains all that we have learned and experienced as well as the habits we have accumulated and desires we harbor – all things that we know. Therefore, the world around us appears in our thoughts as it was. It is in this format that it has been saved and stored in our mind.
We are connected to one another through the aura – the magnetic fields that surround each one of us. What we attract through our aura is one hundred per cent ours, regardless of whether we like it or we don’t. Since everything is neutral in itself, the value we give anything and anyone is purely subjective – Moriya
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1.J. hamilton-Merrick, A Meditator’s diary (1976) Souvenir Press, London, p.24
5. Artwork by Nekaness